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**i have something that i love long-long, but my friends keeping telling me that something’s wrong, then I met someone, and babe, there’s nothing else I can say ** Eh eh, eh eh, there’s nothing else I can say Eh eh, eh eh, i wish you’d never looked at me that way, Eh eh, eh eh, there’s nothing else I can say, **Eh eh, eh eh ^^ all i can say is that EH

waaaaaah. icaolanguii aynta.

yes i am and wen tym comes, i’m me again ang re’newed and, ready for anything again :))

soooo tired. :[ real tired of butterflies and rainbows. tired of hard rains and thorns. i just want to make myself happy for myself. :[[ i dont want to have my remedy. i said goodbye to my endless bliss, and goodbye remedy. :[ im sorry. this i did for you, i dont want you to get hurt just because of my stupidity. goodbye. thank you for everything. thank you for someway, somehow, i smiled. :']]

yes.. yes.. im totally over eeeeverytheeeeng.. ;] but still.. im taking time to take away oooool da scars. so dat i can star ol over agen FAIRLY to da next and right man. ;] tah tah! ;D

aaaaaaaaaaaaah! ;D dont know wat to think of. im acting crazy agen. its just yesterday i cried and almost killed myself and den in da morning, everythings allright! im okeeeeeeey! i just dont understand! oh god! im really dat crazy. i just dont understand wat else my mind would think. i am so crazy and madly , INLOVE???? no! im just that insane. MAYBE! ;D

cold . warm . dirty . pool ! it was so nice having a pool tym wid friends . sweet ! we’ve got to do dat agen . x]

my plan is sooo ruined ! i cant take it . he cant take it . he texted me first . i replied ! stupid ! and then ! oh wtf ! dat day jan. 25 , 09 . we saw ich oder ! a coincidence . i dont know ! oh god ! so hir i am . starting all over again . uh - uh . herd yeah . i know . x[ but i’ve got to .

dont have anything else to do . but  move on . its da best thing for me to end being so blind wid wat i fil . i dont know . he asked for it . set him free and move on . its easy for him to say but hard for me to do . rili hard . wen ders so much for me to forget . every little thing about the two of us . its just to hard to erase . but ive got to . nid too . im drowning in my own filing for him . knowing now dat he dont fil da same for me . i envy da girl hu hold his heart . jealous . really jealous . but she have him . he have her . and here i am on my own . i love him but only on my own . deyr sharing da same thing dat he cant share wid me anymore . i know deyr both hapi of wat dey both fil . i am hapi if he is . but i still cry my self to slip rememberingda tyms and memoris we’ve shared together . its not dat easy you know . its hard . but i rili have to . its wat every one else around me tells me to do . ‘dont u have self pity???‘ they ask me . i’l answer , i have but i just cant easily move on . do i have to forget his name ? before i can forget everything else ? dats just hard . i screened his messages . but ebery now and then i still kip on riding da screened messages hoping he wud text me . i just cant erase his number knowing i memorized it . i kip on posting notes to myself just to remind me everyday dat i dont have him anymore . im doing every silly thing dat i could do . just to forget what we were . it was all left for the wind to blow and fade away da memoris i kip within my self . i kip on telling myself . time is wat i need for me to realize dat nothing rili is broken . dis wud jus go . i know x( as it came to my life . as he came to my life . this, he, us , will just fade away and be gone . FOREVER . im movING on .